My Disclaimer

It is not my intention, through my writing, to hold myself up as an authority or claim that I have intellectually and spiritually evolved to a superior station. My writing is only directly applicable to me and I hope collaterally inspirational for a portion of those who read it. I can never be an expert in regard to another’s life nor am I able to define success for anyone but myself. My writing is not an instruction manual on how to live nor do I remotely believe that my words have the magical power to illuminate universal truths. I write with the primary intention of improving my chances to reveal my best-self. Secondarily I share it with others to hopefully inspire them to find their own way to a better future and to hold myself personally accountable through public proclamation.

Archeologists spend years categorizing hieroglyphs they have unearthed on ancient ruins in the hope that one day they will find similarities in the markings that will ultimately unlock the language of an earlier civilization. This is painstakingly done in the quest to gain an understanding of what life was like in a particular culture. Like the work of the archeologist, my writing is an exploration of my experiences in an attempt to understand the generalities of life and more specifically my own existence. I am sure that my past struggles bear some resemblance to the challenges that others have faced but for the most part the dissection of my experiences only has application to me. As I live in the current moment, I can derive some guidance from these historical discoveries but they do not insure behavior. I have the propensity to be impulsive and if that part of my nature is left unchecked I tend to react to life’s situations in ways that I later find to be illogical and, in some cases, regretful. In times of failure, I revisit my writings to understand and then correct the deviant actions of my lesser-self. My reactions are something that I must be able to have predicted by preemptory thought because my impulses have proven to be untrustworthy. In the end my writing allows me to chronicle my past, manage my present, and guide me to a more enlightened future.

I believe it to be the pinnacle of hubris and an absolute predictor of eventual failure for one to believe that they have evolved to a condition in which self-improvement is no longer possible. With this core belief in mind, I go to sleep each night, alone with my thoughts and the responsibility of my actions of the day. Most nights I passively drift off, satisfied that my better-self has ruled the day. Other nights I aggressively try to fall asleep to try escape the poor behavior that I have exhibited on that day. I do so in the hope that the quiet solace of sleep will quickly bring forward tomorrow and with it a chance for redemption. On each new day I rise, not with the blind expectation that all will go well but with informed determination to actively make it a day that will end with me passively drifting off to sleep.